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plucked

Friday, December 22, 2006

6:05 PM

boo!
i have my teeth plucked.
and i send all my christmas cards!!!
yays.

and i slimmed down 2 kg!!!
wees... still got 2 more teeth to go...
it's like so painful larhs...
2.1 cm long... eew...

i want my shades.

oh man.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

12:04 AM

oh, im like so gna miss my boyfriend
hah, yanjun larhs... she's in china and when she msg me
she says, help me look after weiyu, im very worried about him
ask him not to be so sad... and that he cried?
aaargh-
yanjun's my boyfriend and she two-timed me
aah,aah,aah.
im crying in case u duno... hahs
aiya, i three-timed her.

oh wells.
she gna get me lotsa lotsa presents to satisfy me.
wees.
im gna pluck my teeth out tml
shivers**
im afraid larhs.
lalalalalalas.
im going to the dental...
so my 2nd home would be da dental
and so if someone ask
"zhaojie, what's your hobby"
my ans would be
"flossing and brushing my teeth, that's the way to maintain oral hygiene"
eew, it sounds geeky,

i hate rainy days.
because it made me somehow think of you.
the rain that's falling down
seems like the tears that are falling down my face.

who is that exact one...
dont make me love you please.

christmas wishes---*

Saturday, December 16, 2006

1:21 AM

wishes, what i want for this white christmas!!!
-*hot pants
-*white crown belt
-*school bag.
-*all kinda bags to be exact
-*baggy baggy shirt
-*retro retro sunglass
-*pumps[size 7]
-*dress
-*beady beady necklace
-*necklace, long and big ones.. [anchors]
-*waist belt [black,red,white]
-*jeans[those po po lan lan ones with lotsa holes]
-*mini skirt[with paint splashed on them]
-*off shoulders [any colours except purple, cause i already have that]
-*tubes. [any colours except white, cause i already have that too]
-*heels[size 7]
-*black crown belt
-*spagg.
-*tank tops.
-*jacket preferably from adidas.
-*big big earrings.
-*pouch[those can put neoprints]
-*pouch[shiny shiny kind]
-*wallet
-*purse[rainbow,furry furry one]
-*the ring from couple lab, [[unless its from u, or i wont accept]
-*everyone to be happy

but im willing to give all this things up, just for you.
cause spending a christmas with you is simply priceless.
nothing beats this-

poof!

Friday, December 15, 2006

12:54 AM

went out with my cousin again...
hahas,
and walk walk walk,
time passed and we went to meet that gim moh shuai ge.
hahas,
den two more guys came...
all not bad looking de lorhs...
hahas.
looking for his cargo pants...
and seriously, they made me laugh non-stop.
okayy, they are real funny...
and walk walk walk,
went home...
so heed yanjun's advice by putting top coat...
guess what, it grew bubbles.
and it's seriously, digusting!!!
very ugly lorhs...
and i heart ache, shouldnt have put...
ruined my manicure!!!! aargh!!!!
help....

day out

Thursday, December 14, 2006

12:31 AM

went to meet my cousin in orchard...
so i walked to lido to watch the holiday
and there were this 2 girls from a duno what sec sch
keep talking, shaking the chairs, cat fighting,
using handphones to take pictures with flash, blasting their mp3
and there are not like others with,
heavenly features and a demoness figure,
they are like, fat.
urgh-
when the show end, they like bullet train like that
rushed off...
i know why, cause they were afraid that they kana bashed up!
hahas, den the couple beside them was like, "i cant stand them"
den we were like nodding our heads la...
den we went far east to look for kar chuan...
erm, my cousin friend, another gim moh.
heyhey, he is handsome larhs, and erk hem, loaded!
hahas, just that,
he's kinda fair, erm, i dun like his nose, "girly" hands
but he got a super cool dressing style...
so he just bought a jacket... which cost erm... 60 plus...
and he have a very sickening boss...
we walk walk walk to taka, saw my sis
then we went to cineleisure.... den to the mrt...
and im going out with them tml to find his cargo pants,
eh, i will go willingly with a shuai ge can?
hahas...

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

1:58 AM

i saw u walk away
yeah. i saw.
i saw everthing
i felt every sensation
remember every moment
i looked away
then i looked...
back at you
you didn't smile
you didn't look at my face
only through me...
i couldn't move
stuck in my position
i couldn't say anything
not one word
so i left...
without a goodbye
when night came
i cried
i was nothing
you wanted...
that girl was everything you wanted
yeah. she was.
i understand now.
when people... get heartbrokened
it hurts.
i can't explain it.
it just hurts.
you'll know...
when it happens to you.
i think about u everyday
every minute.
stuck in my mind.
like a broken record...
i have to go...
i have to go...
why didnt u tell me earlier?
he was silent
its not fair.
nothings fair.
life's not fair sometimes.
i wish i was perfect.
you'd still be here.
yeah.
i'm not perfect.
i will never be.
never.

woaini, haoxiangni.

Monday, December 11, 2006

7:28 PM

did manicure today!!!
lalalas.
den i didnt pass jordan my gameboy and mp3
paiseh arhs!!!
cause he leaving for newzealand tonight.
he just called.. then he was like,
i call just to tell u im leaving to the airport.
den i was like, then...
then he say bye bye
so i was like
yi lu shun feng, ban lu shi zong
very mean right?
hahas,
den i said bon voyage.

walked to the busstop,
feeling so depressed.
i dont know why,
i nearly got hit down by a car...
he was like "beep.beep.beep!!!"
each honk was louder and louder.
and that pulled me out from my deep thoughts.
an auntie pull me back as i was dazed.
looking at da speed, it drove pass me.
my heart skipped a beat.
yepp, say thanks to her and decided to take a bus...
actually wanted to walk home
to rekindle the feelings i've actually missed.
but, i cant.

feeling lost and i've no place to run.
find my smile , find my heart
find them and i'll lock u up...
just in the middle of my tiny heart.

vivovivovivovivovivovivo!

12:27 AM

blablablas.
went to meet jordan, jordan's sis, and her sis's boyfriend
in dhoby ghaut
but they were like so late can?
i missed 8 trains because of them
hahas. okayyes,
actually seven, cause i got on the eighth one.
hahas.
den we went long john and eat eat...
im like so full!!!
den we went to collect tickets.
we watched dejavu.
then end up never go to watch the hong xing da jiang stuffs.
cause it's like so hot!!!
den cause of some stuffs,
yanjun scolded me.
dont talk abt it le...
cause im real pissed too.
den i accompany jordan to buy christmas present for his niece
we both chose piggs!!!
very cute lorhhs... den he was like carrying it everywhere he go
and he volunteered to help me carry my christmas cards!!!
yays, gna send 10 ppl, those who receive it from me must be real lucky!
what can i say? jordan has become real gentlemanly:)
soon, we went to watch movie!!!
and im being very frank,
the cinema is like so cold!!!!
gv max!!!!
so i was trembling and freezing...
den he asked if i was alright,
and lalalas, how i wished i said im not.
but i couldnt help it, i said im ok!!!
then he accidentally touched my fingers
and asked what was that,
so i was like, erm my fingers larhs.
what else, den he say like metal like that... so cold...
so he put his hands on mine...
yepp, felt better, but i take my hand away
just felt odd...
den i was really cold so i let him hold my hands,
and we were in kinda a constipated position
as his left hand took my right and right hand took my left...
so i felt very uncomfortable, told him
den he took out the middle thing in between us...
and we held hands...
like what couple does...
but i feel very odd and very bad
so i said, eh my fingers very cold
so we held in a diff angle.
but it soon became that one...
den i tell him, your hands will be cold too
but he dun believe
end up is his hands cold and my hands warm!!!
yay-s. lalalas~
so i felt better....
but after everything, i regretted it....
i really really regretted it...
then jordan's sister's boyfriend went to meet his friends...
they are so shuai can???
hahas.
we went arcade played the table hockey and we nearly zao geng lorhs.
cause we both wear white tube!!!
den his sis and i go toilet talk talk while jordan drives his car
after that
we went kfc... eat eat eat
and went home... bla bla bla.

my life?

Sunday, December 10, 2006

1:35 AM

how can i always lend a hand
but ignore the cries within myself
it brings me joy to see you smile
but my emptiness still sits up on the shelf

inside my heart will always bleed
but i will never let it be shown on my face
only the tear that falls down my cheek
will give you a glimpse, a shadow, a trace

i suffocate when i try to breathe
the chains you gave wont let my body go
i have dreams, and needs, and wants
my body is numb, i think maybe you should know

i struggle with my demons each day
you feed them while you slowly watch me die
please let me be myself and set me free
i want to smile as i look up the sky

i want the moon to brighten the night
i want the clouds to pass by me
i want the stars to guide me to heaven
and i want wings to lift me up , and fly...

12:57 AM

you must be honoured kaes? what's with that face? hummph.

say you love me, or i jump! hahas. joking.

sleepy heads!

i can be more exaggerated than u lorhs... hahas.

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9. hey, where's banana? she's da camera woman.

my wish tag, "i want to be with you" hope it will come true, now hanging at esplanade!

puffer fishes.

oh man, i love her

close your eyes and think of me!!!

miss?

Saturday, December 09, 2006

2:19 PM

is turning around in the bed
feeling real troubled.
my mind kept thinking.
thinking of the times i spent with you
are the tears that rolled down my cheeks
is it because of you? or because my eyes wanted to rest badly?
are all my sleepless nights cause of you?
why cant i lead my life like how i want it to be?
must i fight with fate just to be with you?
why are girls wooing guys now?
is it right?
i couldnt stop thinking...
trying so hard, so hard,
just to understand you, but i cant?
why cant you understand me instead?
why must you make me believe that you like me?
why must you be there when im down...
why are you the one that cares for me when im sick.
why are you the one that walks me home?
why must you be so cold to me right now?
why arent you like before?
if ever i could find my courage,
i would tell you,
i EVOL you.
then now, afraid to lose you

am i missing you badly???

change!

Thursday, December 07, 2006

6:36 PM

i wna change my hairstyle!!!
suggestions people?

black nails;black spagetthi;black skirt;black heels.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

11:55 PM

lalalas.
black nails; black spagetthi; black skirt; black heels?
hahas.
is it gothic? or classy?
ponders.**
gees.
or should i wear
white tube top; jeans; pumps
is it casual? or smart?

aargh.
what should i wear????
gosh
im gna kill myself.

bla bla bla.
watched deck the halls with chengjun
stupid; idiotic; freaking person
gave me a couple seat.
which means, in the middle dun have that divider.
aarghs. lucky he is not like **erk hem**
yanjun, siying should know who is erk hem larhs
hahas. nothing happened.
:):):):):):):)
he looked fierce and unapproachable lorhs
hahas. so we started talking in the cinema.
at least we talked.
yj and wy some how pang seh-ed us cannns?
ughs.
it's like freezing in there larhs. super cold.
brrrr~
and im like trembling.
with those ar-choos.
he ask if i was alright.
but, hahas. i put up a strong face.
hahas. im alright!!!!

went home.
gees. i cant sleep.
oh did i say i slept in yanjun's house yesterday.?
lols
many funny things happened.
but at least im not feeling suffocated anymore.
at least someone else now know how i feel.
at least someone understand, im actually not a simple person.
afraid to fall for him.
but i dun like that feeling he is giving me.
i dont feel secure.
im so afraid to fall.

mediacorp... superstars!

3:13 AM

went to mediacorp

with jordan, jordan's sis and her boyfriend

kinda hard to communicate lorhs.

so it's like jordan change so much!

hahas. yepp, definitely more handsome

lalalalas.

ideal height, ideal personality, my ideal boyfriend,

hahas. but he is not larhs...

who ask me so stupid reject him time and time again

hahas. but he is my ex larhs. that lasted for 2 years

memorable time indeed

hahas. many things happened after our break up

like falling in a girl who looks like me

but it only lasted for a few days cause our personality was different

ask me for stead many times

but now he had settled down

he and his stead gna one year le

hais, but i haven yet

**pouts**

he knows i have many suitors

he asked me to give them chance

but hey, erm, they arent the one i like,

is heaven playing a prank on me?

why the one i like aint the one that like me?

anyway, i got the tickets for the hong xing da jiang xing guang da dao

going with jordan.

the dresscode is smart.

diao -_-"

what's that...

gosh. but he asked me to take neoprints

haha next outing larhhs.

hees. looking forward to it though.

ermm.... but what should i wear arhhs?

i am seriously thinking!

trying to look smart, yet prettaye:)

concert

Saturday, December 02, 2006

2:21 PM

finally over le!!!
yays,
made friends.
plenty. lalalas.
i played wrongly.
lucky no one see.
hahas.

pheww...
took photos with xiumei.
i gna upload them.
fun time.
i make up on my own for the first time lorhs!!!!
lucky i dun look like ghost.

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